Double Entry Journal: #9

"I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning." (page 94)

- This quote scares me a little bit because you can tell he's having suicide thoughts, but doesn't describe them as suicide thoughts, but as innocent idea's and thoughts. And he knows having those thoughts are un-healthy, but he still has them even knowing they're unhealthy and doleful. You can also tell he doesn't want them to be suicide thoughts because of all he went through with Michael. 

"Sometimes, I look outside, and I think that a lot of other people have seen this snow before. Just like I think that a lot of other people have read those books before. And listened to those songs. I wonder how they feel tonight."  (page 95)

- I relate a lot to this quote. I also wonder how other people might have felt when they saw, heard, or read what I have. Or how what they have felt relates to how I felt, and how different people interpret different songs, books, or weather, or images differently based off their life and past experiences. Or how it has taught them, and if it changed any of their ideas or decisions later on in their life.

"Everyone else is either asleep or having sex. I've been watching cable television and eating jello." (page 94)

- I believe this quote is funny and shows who Charlie really is as a person. Its a great contrasting perspective, and makes me wonder what my life is like compared to other teens out in the world. I can tell by this quote that I am a lot more like Charlie than I thought. Although I'm not particularly a fan of jello.